I believe this is me...

My PURPOSE...

During our English time today, I was thinking of a lot of things, including the story that we tackled, Jonathan Livingston Segull. The story was very interesting. I was also thinking about what really happened to Dei yesterday (OOOPS! Just wait for my next blog, I will have that topic...). But what made those thoughts disappear in my mind was when Ma'am Del Rosario gave us this assignment: "Publish a blog with the topic, What is the purpose of my existence?". That question struck me, I don't know why. Maybe, it is because my life has always been just a big cycle-in the morning, I have to wake up, take a bath and eat, then I have to go to school, then after dismissal time, I have to go to my school bus. At home, I have to fix myself and do my assignments and eat dinner, I have to prepare to sleep and wake up the next morning to go to school... and so on. I have been doing this in my life since I was a little girl and so I have forgotten things like finding out the purpose of my existence in this world.

I am aware that I am really blessed compared to the other people my age. I have parents and relatives who have been very supportive to me and who never leaves me in times when I need them. A lot of teens and children are not given the opportunity to study but I was given this rare chance to learn in an educational institution which, I can say, is one of the best. I was gifted with knowledge that helped me survived through every school year. I was also given a lot of special abilities and talents which I know, not everyone possesses. Yet, I don't really know what God wants me to do with all these. But for sure, He wants me to use them all, not only for my benefit, but also for the benefit of others.

Most probably, He wants me to, first of all, give happiness to my parents. Why would God give me to them if I would not be giving them happiness? I have been studying hard and trying to achieve a lot because I want to make them happy and proud of me. They have guided me through every step of the way and I want to repay them by showing that they are never a failure in raising me up as a person. I also believe that I was given to my friends because I should be there for them when they need me, and I know that they will also be there if I need them. What are friends for?

My knowledge is something that God entrusted to me which I believe should be nurtured until I grow old. Most importantly, this knowledge shouldn't be kept only for myself, it should not even be used for competing with other people. It should be utilized to help others broaden their own knowledge for their own advantage and at the same time, for the advantage of the others. My special talents are given to me, most probably because I can use them as tools which can change sadness and sorrow into happiness and joy.

Most importantly, I believe that God gave me everything I have right now to show everyone how great He is. He wants people to understand that He will never let us down and that he will always be there if we need Him...like how He showed it to me.


My REPRESENTATION...

I want to represent my self as the "drama or theater masks" and the theater itself. My life had a lot of different acts and a lot of emotions. Like a theater actor, I may seem to be happy but deep inside, no one knows that I am dolorous. I may put a smile in a very sad face but no one knows that I can't even place a smile in my own face. Like the theater plays, my life is not as easy as it looks. I had a lot of challenges. There are times when I had to do an "adlib" to survive. Nevertheless, after everything else has been done, I would be very fulfilled and contented because I had ended another episode of my life... while looking forward to a new one.