I can do this...

Last Friday, the school had the induction of officers for the different clubs. Well, obviously, I am included. I have sworn as the Vice President for Documentation for SALIW (I LOVE SALIW!!!) and Auditor for the English Club.

Now I am officially in the position... Can I do this? I hope so.

For the past years, the documentation for SALIW has always been the problem when it comes to the end of the year, in the signing of clearances. I fear the fact this might also happen this year. It is fine if my clearance will be the only one to be held, but no. All the clearances of the SALIW members will not be signed if I won't submit the "scrap book". How shameful would that feel?

Honestly, I am a very dedicated SALIW member myself. I love to be in that club. I got to meet a lot of nice, friendly people and I got to experience a lot of things that I know, I wouldn't have experienced if not for them. I got to bond with a very wonderful teacher also, Ma'am May who I consider as a mentor, as a friend, as a mother. Most of all, I got to do the thing which I love...DANCING.

It is only the start of the year and I still have a long way to go... I will still encounter a lot of problems and I know that I can surpass them because I know that:

[(2)hard work] + perseverance + prayers and faith in God + a little help from friends + a little bit of fun = SUCCESS

I can do this... I can do this... I CAN DO THIS!

One of God's Precious Gifts : MY FATHER

A father has always been a sentinel for every child. Because of this, a lot of people have the same thoughts that fathers are superior. Yes, they are...but in a good way. Like in my case, my father is a friend who has always been an inspiration. He tries to show me that he is predominant to gain the respect that he deserves and also to teach us to know our limitations. He has been a good influence to me for unlike other fathers, he doesn't have vices. He'd rather cook our food, wash our clothes and clean the house than hang out with his friends. He is also a religious person for he taught us to devote some of our time every weekend to attend mass. We have to prioritize it or else, he will talk to us and let us realize its importance to our lives. Lastly, he is very family-oriented. Though he has his own family already, he never forgets to visit his mother (my grandmother) and at the same time, bring us to her to bridge the gaps between us (for we don't see each other that often). Indeed, I am very lucky for having a father like him. I will forever be thankful to God for a very special gift, that is, my father.

My family..

This is my family diagram...

Patience is all we need…

Last Sunday, I woke up with a text message from Dei saying that Ma’am May was brought again to the hospital and was operated again. I was surprised because she had just been operated, if I’m not mistaken, 3 or 4 weeks ago. We are supposed to go to Kuya Shandel’s house to visit Ma’am May so Dei texted Kuya Shandel to know if we can visit or on what time, that’s how we knew about what happened.

When we arrived in the hospital, I was so curious about what happened to Ma’am May. We are hesitating to go inside her room because we don’t know what to expect, but we were hoping that she doesn’t look the way she did the first time we visited her on her first operation. Kuya Shandel was inside and two other boys who, maybe, was Ma’am May’s former students (according to Dei, maybe they were part of the batch before her sister.). We just stood there, not knowing what to do. Kuya Shandel offered seats but we did not take them and we said in a joking manner, “Nagpapatangkad po.”

Dei asked Kuya Shandel about Ma’am May’s condition and he explained to us everything with a diagram made by the doctor (thankfully, Ma’am May did not look as weak and as ill as the first time). Ma’am May, though we are far from her, was also explaining to us and the other two boys about what happened to her and tears was falling from her eyes. She said that she pity the fourth years because she felt that they need her (she was teaching English…) and because the UPCAT was near. We miss Ma’am May already and we want her back. But since, this happened, we have to be patient and just wait until she can go back to the school…

Life is so unfair!

This week was so tough…whew! Thank God I have survived another week of exams. Last Monday, I didn’t get enough sleep because I have to study as hard as I can to get a high grade. The subjects we took last Tuesday were Math, Araling Panlipunan, English and Advanced Statistics.

The fact that we were going to have A.P. on our first day of the exams troubled us because we only have a few hours for studying but this subject requires a lot of memorizing (there are a lot of facts!). We also need to study a lot for English because our topic was a bit confusing (it was about infinitives, infinitive phrases and the functions) But I didn’t study Math anymore since I have studied already during our long test which we had last week (if I am not mistaken…). Our test in Advanced Statistics was just fine…

On our second day, we took Chemistry, Physics, Filipino, MAPEH and Elective (mine is Zoology). Chemistry and Physics were fine, I felt safe when I took it. Filipino was so exhausting to take. Almost all of the questions were open-ended! Imagine that…MAPEH was a bit hard too, because there are also open-ended questions and we have to draw a diagram (which I have no idea how to answer! I didn’t know that we need to memorize that!) Zoology was also hard! There was a part in that test where we have to answer the type of tropism or nastic movement that the situation suggests. It was all about plants! We are taking Zoology but that test was about plants!!!!

Never mind the test… We have a very funny experience when we ate in Claro’s on the second day of test. We were very noisy then. We were waiting the food to be served so the tendency is for us to chat (we were talking about our test…). The food is already there held by this cute waiter. Since we are very noisy, he cannot go between us to serve our food so he suddenly shouted “Wait! Sino ang umorder ng Selecta 5, Kanino ung ubod?” in a very gayish way! We all laughed because we thought he was a straight man but no! He was a gay! To think that he is very cute! Life is really unfair…

We also had a very bad experience. Actually, I am not directly involved in this trouble but indirectly, maybe yes. The group of Kathleen was about to throw their trashes (leaves, other biodegradables…) to the pit in the Pharmacological Garden. But unfortunately, it was locked so they just went back. I think after a while, I don’t know who saw but there are non-biodegradables in the pit (which was forbidden to be thrown there) and some first years accused Kathleen’s group in throwing those. I think Ma’am Pareja got angry but there are already other people from the first and second years who admitted in throwing the “forbidden trashes” there. I am just not sure if the blame was lifted from us already. I am affected because Aaron and I really wanted to win the Earthwatch Teens (we are our section’s representatives). I can’t accept that just because of those blames which really aren’t true, we won’t reach our goal. Again, life is really unfair…

Hold on to your friends...and don't let go.

It was last Monday when something very unexpected happened...

Dei and I have just arrived in school last Monday when she told me that she felt pains in her stomach. We are to have a flag ceremony that day and I told her not to attend anymore since she does not feel good, but she still insisted that she will attend the ceremony because she has no one to talk to in our room. I just let her thinking that she'll be alright.

While in the flag ceremony, we are dancing the CALABARZON song when I saw her sitting down. I was thinking what to do when Sheila went infront of our platoon to call our platoon leader to assist Dei. She was asked if she wants to return to the room bet she said that she's ok. She doesn't look "ok" to me...

When the ceremony ended, we were walking back to the room when I asked her what she feels. She did not reply and I got an impression that she does not want anyone to bother her so I just left. Inside the room, I was about to get cleaning materials (my group was assigned infront of the guidance center) when one of my classmates called me. So came nearer and saw that Dei was already on the floor (she did not collapsed, she just sat down until she reached a lying position).

Surprised by what I saw, I asked A-jae to go with me to call the nurse. But since we saw from afar that the clinic is still closed, we came to the nearest teacher we saw, Ma'am Elaine Malones. We told her what happened to Dei and she told us to approach our adviser first. We saw Ma'am Del Rosario infront of the guidance center so we run as fast as we could. We said that something happened to Dei and she needs to go there.

After telling her, we went ahead. Inside the room, we saw Ma'am Arlyn Tolentino, our former adviser (we had to change adviser because she was already the chief adviser of the third year level). She was holding Dei who was having chills. After seeing that the two teachers are already there for her and after knowing that they have already called her parents, I just attended to my responsibilities (cleaning).

When we were walking to the room, I saw her parents at our backs. Thank God they have arrived. At that time, I know that she will be fine. She was taken home and that day, I was thinking of what might have been the cause of what Dei felt. I can't help but to worry because she is my friend and I don't want anything bad happening to them.

I just felt relieved when I knew that she was at home and she's doing fine. The next day, she was already in school but she isn't as active as before, but I understand her. She didn't get enough rest.

I really thank God that nothing severe happen to her. I hope that this won't happened again and she would take care of herself.

I believe this is me...

My PURPOSE...

During our English time today, I was thinking of a lot of things, including the story that we tackled, Jonathan Livingston Segull. The story was very interesting. I was also thinking about what really happened to Dei yesterday (OOOPS! Just wait for my next blog, I will have that topic...). But what made those thoughts disappear in my mind was when Ma'am Del Rosario gave us this assignment: "Publish a blog with the topic, What is the purpose of my existence?". That question struck me, I don't know why. Maybe, it is because my life has always been just a big cycle-in the morning, I have to wake up, take a bath and eat, then I have to go to school, then after dismissal time, I have to go to my school bus. At home, I have to fix myself and do my assignments and eat dinner, I have to prepare to sleep and wake up the next morning to go to school... and so on. I have been doing this in my life since I was a little girl and so I have forgotten things like finding out the purpose of my existence in this world.

I am aware that I am really blessed compared to the other people my age. I have parents and relatives who have been very supportive to me and who never leaves me in times when I need them. A lot of teens and children are not given the opportunity to study but I was given this rare chance to learn in an educational institution which, I can say, is one of the best. I was gifted with knowledge that helped me survived through every school year. I was also given a lot of special abilities and talents which I know, not everyone possesses. Yet, I don't really know what God wants me to do with all these. But for sure, He wants me to use them all, not only for my benefit, but also for the benefit of others.

Most probably, He wants me to, first of all, give happiness to my parents. Why would God give me to them if I would not be giving them happiness? I have been studying hard and trying to achieve a lot because I want to make them happy and proud of me. They have guided me through every step of the way and I want to repay them by showing that they are never a failure in raising me up as a person. I also believe that I was given to my friends because I should be there for them when they need me, and I know that they will also be there if I need them. What are friends for?

My knowledge is something that God entrusted to me which I believe should be nurtured until I grow old. Most importantly, this knowledge shouldn't be kept only for myself, it should not even be used for competing with other people. It should be utilized to help others broaden their own knowledge for their own advantage and at the same time, for the advantage of the others. My special talents are given to me, most probably because I can use them as tools which can change sadness and sorrow into happiness and joy.

Most importantly, I believe that God gave me everything I have right now to show everyone how great He is. He wants people to understand that He will never let us down and that he will always be there if we need Him...like how He showed it to me.


My REPRESENTATION...

I want to represent my self as the "drama or theater masks" and the theater itself. My life had a lot of different acts and a lot of emotions. Like a theater actor, I may seem to be happy but deep inside, no one knows that I am dolorous. I may put a smile in a very sad face but no one knows that I can't even place a smile in my own face. Like the theater plays, my life is not as easy as it looks. I had a lot of challenges. There are times when I had to do an "adlib" to survive. Nevertheless, after everything else has been done, I would be very fulfilled and contented because I had ended another episode of my life... while looking forward to a new one.